How was I supposed to know that you would react the way that you did? Evidently, you have several years of anger and resentment built up towards me. You aren't supposed to be jealous of your children. I am only living my life the way that you raised me to.
If I am strong and independent, it is because I watched you be that way my entire life and I want to emulate that trait. If I am an overachiever, it is only because you taught me to aim high and not to give up until I obtain my goal.
The reason it took me until I was 33 to find the man that I have made my husband is because it took me that long to find a man that was worthy of me. I saw how things didn't work out with my dad and how awful Gary was to you and us kids and I didn't want to be put in the same situation.
It was not my intention to upset you, perhaps I made a serious misjudgement. However, you cannot blame me and cast me out from this family because of an issue that you percieve within yourself.
You say that I am making you pay for mistakes that you have made. I think that is very far from the truth. One thing that I didn't learn from you was to not hold grudges. If I can still love my father for never being there while I was growing up, I can certainly love you for being the one who was. Mistakes are made, whether I thought they were or not, but they are in the past and the past cannnot be changed.
I hurt because of all the wonderful things that you have missed in my life over the last year. I am a changed person because I never believed that one decision could have altered my life the way that it has.
I have tried to reach out to you over the last year to no avail. I am not asking for forgiveness because I have not done anything wrong. I am not apologizing either. I am simply asking that I not be cast out as a fallen member of this family. It is not fair.
How was I supposed to know that you would react the way that you did? Evidently, you have several years of anger and resentment built up towards me. You aren't supposed to be jealous of your children. I am only living my life the way that you raised me to.
ReplyDeleteIf I am strong and independent, it is because I watched you be that way my entire life and I want to emulate that trait. If I am an overachiever, it is only because you taught me to aim high and not to give up until I obtain my goal.
The reason it took me until I was 33 to find the man that I have made my husband is because it took me that long to find a man that was worthy of me. I saw how things didn't work out with my dad and how awful Gary was to you and us kids and I didn't want to be put in the same situation.
It was not my intention to upset you, perhaps I made a serious misjudgement. However, you cannot blame me and cast me out from this family because of an issue that you percieve within yourself.
You say that I am making you pay for mistakes that you have made. I think that is very far from the truth. One thing that I didn't learn from you was to not hold grudges. If I can still love my father for never being there while I was growing up, I can certainly love you for being the one who was. Mistakes are made, whether I thought they were or not, but they are in the past and the past cannnot be changed.
I hurt because of all the wonderful things that you have missed in my life over the last year. I am a changed person because I never believed that one decision could have altered my life the way that it has.
I have tried to reach out to you over the last year to no avail. I am not asking for forgiveness because I have not done anything wrong. I am not apologizing either. I am simply asking that I not be cast out as a fallen member of this family. It is not fair.
Still your daughter,
Kristina